Into The Mirror

by Leslie Hudson

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released June 27, 2015

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Leslie Hudson Burlington, Ontario

Leslie Hudson is an independent musician, based in the Toronto area of Ontario, Canada.

A unique blend of styles and influences, she can beat the piano into submission or lull it to sleep, depending on her mood.

Armed with a powerhouse voice and more than 25 years of songwriting, she performs solo and with her various bands.

Visit lesliehudson.com for music, bookings and more info.
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Track Name: Cracked
There is a part of me that’s leaving
And a part of you that’s gone
I don’t know how I should be feeling
But I know where it went wrong

In the chaos of emotion
I can’t see a single star
Fighting back against the maelstrom
'Til I don’t know who we are
I am bleeding but I’m quiet
You are wounded and you scream
Close my heart so I won’t fear you
And my eyes but it’s no dream

For a moment in the darkness
Thought I was blind
I let it take me 'til I made up my mind

I am cracked but I’m not broken
You’ll never break me down
I won’t be silent any longer
I won’t give it up and drown
I am splinters wrapped together
You can throw me on the fire
I am rising from the ashes
Like a phoenix of desire

There is a part of me that’s grieving
For the part of you that shone
I can’t explain the things I’m feeling
I just know we don’t belong

In the remnant of devotion
Like a firefly in a jar
Fading slowly into nothing
Didn’t know we’d come this far
We’re diverging, you are distant
I can’t find the words to say
You’re a memory in the mirror
You’re a part of yesterday

I am cracked but I’m not broken
You’ll never break me down
I won’t be silent any longer
I won’t give it up and drown
I am splinters wrapped together
You can throw me on the fire
I am rising from the ashes
Like a phoenix of desire

And I cut the cord that has tied me here to you
Don’t wanna let the loss linger, no
Fall for the first time without you catching me
Somehow I land on my feet, so

I cut the cord that has tied me here to you
Don’t wanna let the loss linger, no
Fall for the first time without you catching me
Somehow I land on my feet, you know

This regret has made me restless
I’m moving on
Into the flicker of another dawn

I am cracked but I’m not broken
You’ll never break me down
I won’t be silent any longer
I won’t give it up and drown
I am splinters wrapped together
You can throw me on the fire
I am rising from the ashes
Like a phoenix of desire

You’ll never break me down
I won’t be silent any longer
I won’t give it up and drown
I am splinters wrapped together
You can throw me on the fire
I am rising from the ashes
Like a phoenix of desire

And I cut the cord that has tied me here to you
Don’t wanna let the loss linger, no
Fall for the first time without you catching me
Somehow I land on my feet, so

I cut the cord that has tied me here to you
Don’t wanna let the loss linger, no
Fall for the first time without you catching me
Somehow I land on my feet, so go
Track Name: Here We Go Again
Ladies, can you tell me
Have you heard this before
Have you ever had a moment
Where you end up on the floor
And no, you don't know how you got there
You came for dessert
Now that his hands have found
Their way up your skirt

Oh-oh-oohh, here we go again
Oh-oh-oohh, what is it with men
Oh-oh-oohh, here we go, here we go again, yeah
Oh-oh-oohh, here we go-o-o-o
They’re gonna sweep you off your feet
When you have found them again
They’re gonna sweep you off your feet
When you have found them again

Got a heart of darkness
Got a heart of gold
It doesn't matter in the end
'Cause we're all growin' old
And yeah, the moment may have meaning
The darkness may have fire
But you're naked in the morning
When you've spent your desire

Oh-oh-oohh, here we go again
Oh-oh-oohh, what is it with men
Oh-oh-oohh, here we go, here we go again, yeah
Oh-oh-oohh, here we go-o-o-o
They’re gonna sweep you off your feet
When you have found them again
They’re gonna sweep you off your feet
When you have found them again

Drivin' with your shades on
And your coffee cup
Yeah, he was down and he was out
When you were already up
And yes, that dress had fewer wrinkles
When you wore it yesterday
But yesterday's tomorrow was a long way away
You know that
Yesterday's tomorrow was a long way away

Oh-oh-oohh, here we go again
Oh-oh-oohh, what is it with men
Oh-oh-oohh, here we go, here we go again, yeah
Oh-oh-oohh, here we go-o-o-o
They’re gonna sweep you off your feet
When you have found them again
They’re gonna sweep you off your feet
When you have found them again

Ladies, can you tell me
Have you heard this before
Has he ever come a-knockin’
When you’ve closed that door
Track Name: Oars in the Water
Husband had I and wife had he
Each with our children on our knees
But I didn't fight when he came for me
Dreaming as one that we were free

I and my lover we hatched a plan
Wrapped up my youngest and swiftly ran
Started anew on a foreign land
This miner's lady with gold in her hand, oh

The sun it is setting down into the waves
The currents are crossing
What is it he craves?
I must possess you, my beauty, he raved
It is pulling me under
And I cannot be saved

Two children born to him and I
Under the neighbours' watchful eyes
Showing them all our most practiced disguise
One step ahead of all our lies, oh

The sun it is setting down into the waves
The currents are crossing
What is it he craves?
I must possess you, my beauty, he raved
It is pulling me under
And I cannot be saved

Well I remember my last day
Out with my lover on the bay
Safe in our home our two children did play
Only this son of mine did stay, oh

Oars in the water make no sound
Here's where my boat turns upside down
Here's where my son and I were drowned
Haunting the shore where we never were found, oh

The sun it is setting down into the waves
The currents are crossing
What is it he craves?
I have possessed you, my beauty, he raved
It is pulling me under
And I cannot be
No, we cannot be
Oh, he's the only one tonight
Who will be saved

But not from me
No, not from me
Ah, oars in the water
Track Name: Already Gone
Lyin' on the floor
Starin' at the wall
Waitin' for the phone to ring
But you've already called

Tryin' on that dress
You gave to me last fall
I can still remember
The moment that we stalled

And I can taste your salt upon my lips
And I can hear you breathing
And I can smell your body on my skin
But I can feel me leaving

And I have to let you go
Yes, I have to let you go
And you can get up and go
'Cause I'm already gone
I'm already gone

Slipping from these sheets
I gather up my clothes
Pack them in a suitcase
While both your eyes are closed

I never meant to stay
I'm not the one you chose
I'm followin' the wind
Whichever way it blows

And I still taste your salt upon my lips
And I still hear you breathing
And I still smell your body on my skin
But I can feel me leaving

And I have to let you go
Yes, I have to let you go
Now you can get up and go
'Cause I'm already gone
I'm already gone

It's easy to recover
From a shallow lover's wound
I have no doubt
You will discover
That you're better off

So I have to let you go
Yes, I have to let you go
Now you can get up and go
'Cause I'm already gone
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
I’m already gone
Track Name: Doppelganger
Back against the wall
Laugh it off, let it slide
Plot like Dr Jekyll
And play like Mr Hyde

Livin' off the fume
Drink it in, breathe it deep
Jekyll is the dreamer
But it's Hyde who will let you sleep

Doppelganger
Double-edged
Bury me tonight
Down where all the demons go
Keep me out of sight
One recedes so one may rise
Keep the status quo
Angels, when you come for me
Bury me below

Limbo is the lure
Nothing felt, nothing found
Jekyll has no memory
And Hyde don't make no sound

Siren on the wind
Little lies in the black
Jekyll tries to warn you
That Hyde, he is comin' back

Doppelganger
Double-edged
Bury me tonight
Down where all the demons go
Keep me out of sight
One recedes so one may rise
Keep the status quo
Angels, when you come for me
Bury me below

Stumblin' is easy
When there's no one there to see
Don't look back, my friend
And don't you dare come back for me

Stumblin' is easy
When there's no one there to see
Don't look back, my friend
And don't you dare come back for
Dare come back for me

Bottom of the glass
Lift it up, let it bide
Here's to Dr Jekyll
And cheers to Mr Hyde

Knock upon this door
If you must, but beware
Jekyll made the monster
And Hyde will never ever care

Doppelganger
Double-edged
Bury me tonight
Down where all the demons go
Keep me out of sight
One recedes so one may rise
Keep the status quo
Angels, when you come for me
Bury me below
Track Name: Shadowing
Call it crowing when I am calling for help
When I am shouting from the rooftops
To look out below
For the falling debris from the top shelf

Is it showing beneath the hem of my skirt
Where I have tucked in my white feathers
And stopped up the flow
With the messages scrawled on my t-shirts

I'm all-knowing until I look in the mirror
And see the surface of the body
I cannot outgrow
Through the eyes of a blasphemous seer

I can see I'm
Shadowing
Everything
Shadowing
A raven's wing

Disbelieving that I deserve to be heard
Above the murmurs of the masses
And loathe to receive admiration
When I'm not a songbird

I'm deceiving every casual romance
'Cause I know how to work a black dress
The right way to breathe
On my toes in my heels for the last dance

(I deceive, I deceive)

Incompleting the very passes I'm thrown
Afraid of showing that I've got talons
And blood on my beak
As I sharpen it here on your whetstone

I can see I'm
Shadowing
Everything
Shadowing
A raven's wing

When the wind blows
I let it carry me
My raucous laugh can be infectious
I know others have been here before me
But I am here now
And this is precious

I've been learning how to sail with the tide
To measure monuments and mountains
The way to discern domination
From fear and a fool's pride

I can see I'm
Shadowing
Everything
Shadowing
A raven's wing

I am yearning for the moment I break
And I embrace disintegration
'Cause then I will earn that one moment of loss
For its own sake
And reawaken
Track Name: Until It Breaks
I go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
You go on deceivin'
Bend the bough that wants to break
I go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
So I'm not leavin'
Bend this bough until it breaks

I would like to find the words
To tell you how it feels
To pull you from the gravity
That is dragging at your heels

It has been so hard
Pulling out the shards
Splintered glass cuts deep
Lip service is cheap

But I go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
You go on deceivin'
Bend the bough that wants to break
I go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
So I'm not leavin'
Bend this bough until it breaks

I would like to find a way
To keep from going blind
To step back from the twister
That is spinning in your mind

I have weathered shame
Holding on to blame
Shoulders bowing down
Knees upon the ground

Should I go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
You'll go on deceivin'
Bend the bough that wants to break
I go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
So I'm not leavin'
Bend this bough until it breaks

I have grown so tired
That I barely even sleep
Buried here in clutter
I've forgotten how to sweep

So I won't go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
You'll go on deceivin'
Bend this bough until it breaks
I won't go on believin'
You're the pill I need to take
So I am leavin'
Mend this heart before it breaks
Mend this heart before it breaks
Mend this heart before it breaks
Before it breaks

Break it off
Break it off
Break it off
Track Name: Epona's Wild Daughter
Teach me to embrace a shadow
Hold me in your hands, immobile
Ask me to uncover wisdom
Pull me into bleakest night

Temporary madness
All-consuming sadness
Nightmare inescapable
Dorcha, she comes
Wounds, she will cauterize
Epona's Wild Daughter rides
Owl-borne through every storm
Dorcha, she comes

Driving on toward the darkness
Facing paralytic terror
Gazing into the black mirror
Searching for the road ahead

Temporary madness
All-consuming sadness
Nightmare inescapable
Dorcha, she comes
Wounds, she will cauterize
Epona's Wild Daughter rides
Owl-borne through every storm
Dorcha, she comes

Share the journey now with me
Starry-crowned epiphany
Unearth remains that haunt the heart
Unflinchingly
Understand the rage in me
The sage I'll be
The mage you see
Bring to light the page to be yet written

Temporary madness
All-consuming sadness
Nightmare inescapable
Dorcha, she comes
Wounds, she will cauterize
Epona's Wild Daughter rides
Owl-borne through every storm
Dorcha, she comes
Track Name: Honey
Honey, you are honey on my tongue
So much sweeter than the sting ever unsung
Honey, we create it from the flower dust
Whenever flower lust takes wing

Summer soft rolling in
Like thunder in the distance without resistance
Linden heavy on the breeze
An opiate of daydreams

Honey wine’s a sweet gone sour
It changes over time
It happens down the line
Honey, you’re a velvet hour
A sweetness so sublime
A luminary sometime

Drifting on the river of perception
That flows between the moment and reflection
Uplifting to be floating here beside you
Whatever you and I do or say

Summer rain rolling in
With thunder in the distance beyond resistance
Little rivulets are these
Our tributary daydreams

Honey wine’s a sweet gone sour
It changes over time
It happens down the line
Honey, you’re a velvet hour
A sweetness so sublime
A luminary sometime

Barefooting my senses
I have shed all my defenses
Now I’m breathing in

Honey wine’s a sweet gone sour
It changes over time
It happens down the line
Honey, you’re a velvet hour
A sweetness so sublime
A luminary sometime

Honey, you are honey on my tongue
So much sweeter than the sting, my love
Track Name: My Dear My Doubt
Where are you when I need you
To watch me struggle through
Not to save me
I can swim
Just to bear a witness to
A moment made all the sweeter with you

Can't remember how it felt
When you were my best bet
That's a lie
I should have said
That I really can't forget
A moment made ever bitter with you

There's a line but it bends
Where it smudges
Where it fades
An illusion drawn between us
And a memory over-played
Find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt
Go and find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt

Thought that you could weather it
From one state to the next
But it's harder than it looks
When you've got your every muscle flexed
A moment made out on a tether with you

There's a line but it bends
Where it smudges
Where it fades
An illusion drawn between us
And a memory over-played
Find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt
Go and find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt

‘Cause there's a line but it bends
Where it smudges
Where it fades
An illusion drawn between us
And a memory over-played
Find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt
Go and find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt

Go and find a way around it if you can
Go and find a way around it if you can
You can find a way around it if you can, my dear
But I have my doubt
Oh I have my doubt

My dear, my doubt
My dear, my doubt
My dear, my doubt
My dear, my doubt
Track Name: Little Fish
Little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
Just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be
Little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
She's just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be

Made my home in this fishing bowl
You said I would do much better in an aquarium
Where the oxygen is pumped into your very lungs
You know you'll get a better view from the solarium

So I jumped ship via the fishing nets
You said I couldn't bring along a single thing
And the past is the past, my sweet, my pretty pet
With sugar on your tongue
And just a little sting

Little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
Just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be
Little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
She's just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be

So I jumped in and I dove head first
You said, you'd better bring a light
So you can glow in the dark
For every single note that I have over-rehearsed
There's another wave to ride
To make my water-mark

Thought that I had brought it
Just a little too late
But I won't let the current
Determine my fate
Thought that I had brought it
Just a little too late
But I won't let the current
Determine, determine, determine
Determine, determine, determine
Determine, determine my fate
My fate, no

Little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
Just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be
Little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
She's just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be
Than she thought she'd be
She's just a little bit bigger
Than she thought she'd be

A little fish swimming
In the deep blue sea
Track Name: Any Way the Wind Blows
Estranged but still in view
Opaque and looking through
The wind brake there between
A picture perfect scene

And I can whisper like a zephyr
And I can howl like a gale
Go as dead as any calm
Cut a twister-littered trail

Any way the wind blows
Couldn’t fight against the current if we tried
Any way the wind blows
Couldn’t fight against the current if we tried
And we tried

If I should forge ahead
Deny the watershed
Be tethered still in kind
In body, heart and mind

I would wither on the zephyr
And I would cower in the gale
Go as dead as any calm
On a twister-littered trail

Any way the wind blows
Couldn’t fight against the current if we tried
Any way the wind blows
Couldn’t fight against the current if we tried
Any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows
Couldn’t fight against the current if we tried
And we tried
Tried
Tried
Tried